This look like fun. Oh no, wait… Damn~

My life is a little f***ed up. In a much appropriate way to say it; my life is a little tangled up. I missed the closing date to apply UiTM; 16th November (great job dude!). So now I only left with few options; continue working, look for another job (a pain in the a** since I don’t really fulfil the requirements for almost any job except for sales associates and production operators) or try to continue my study somewhere else. And surely enough my parents won’t approve any of it (no surprise though). Maybe it’s time for me to have a real conversation (or people like to called it “slow talk”) with them about my future (yeah, I never have a real conversation with them for almost 20 years, and I’m 20 years old).

Huzie's Tags: my future now looks like highway multiple exits instead of a one way road,I miss my friends,I am hungry,if I continue working I want a promotion hehehe

the sea looks calm, but there’s a storm at the ocean

I’m pretty sure nobody ever read my blog. If there are readers, there should be some comments by now. Well, for the sake of “I-love-to-write-anything-even-if-it’s-craps” I’ll continue writing craps, craps and more craps.

I’m currently at a point where relationship and love doesn’t mean anything. Yeah, I’m back to that point again. I just hope this doesn’t effect my performance at work though. But one of my friend is currently having one of the greatest experience in her life. She needs her friends more than I do. I know that deep inside, she is very fragile and a part of her is gone forever.

Blessing in disguise.

Frankly, it has been a while and I don’t know what to write here. I’ve wrote about my work, music, fashion, etc.. Maybe now I would like to write about my best friends that I won’t say their names. Some of my best friends have been by my side for about 10 years now. A little strange fact about my best friends is that all of them are girls. It is easier to have a deep conversation with them. I am a good listener myself, so it is a win-win situation where I get to let it out at them, and vice versa.

Huzie's Tags: I want to eat blueberry cheesecake,or even chocolate praline,I am hungry

What to do?

I am currently having 5 days off from work. Sort of a vacation since I had to work on Eid. All I did was sleep, sleep, sleep, and sleep almost the whole day.

I’m sure you guys realised about this issue too but don’t have the time to actually talk about it. DSLRs are hanging on everyone nowadays. When I said everyone, I meant EVERYONE. From filthy rich kids to small ignorance brats. They see DSLR as fashion and not as function. I dare to say that most of them don’t even know what DSLR stand for. All they knew are turn the bloody camera on, take some stupid pictures and upload them on the bloody Facebook. All they did was just a waste of their bloody parents’ money. They should just buy those high-end compact digital cameras and F themselves up. I am sick and tired of seeing this stupidity shown by teenagers (which are younger than me) nowadays. Yeah! This is me telling you that teenagers nowadays sucks… BIG TIME! With their strange an absurd fashion sense. I don’t think these people will be the leaders of tomorrow.

Maybe you realised this, may be not… but I tend to write something else in every paragraph. Each paragraph is a different story… most of the time. BTW, I realised something about technology that gave me a new perspective on Malaysia’s education system. It is the Astro Tutor TV. It is actually a new and solid reasons for students to skip their school. Yeah, they can skip school for the whole bloody year and still learn the same thing on Astro Tutor TV…

 

Huzie's Tags: Astro Tutor TV is another reason for kids to skip their school,I slept for 13 hours on Monday,It was very refreshing

Onions make my stomach feels strange

The fact that I have to work on the first day of Eid is sucks. The new part-timers at my work place tend to delay their jobs, making things moving very slow in the shop. Hence, making the shop look full and busy. It is good, but at the same time it’s hard for me to do other chores if there is too many customers to be served.

Tonight I didn’t went back directly to home from work, instead I decided to take a “tour” to some of the homes of my ex-girlfriends. I don’t know why suddenly I remembered them (which I am sure they don’t give a damn about me anymore). I end up being almost all around Shah Alam area.

Long distance relationship… I have been in one for almost 10 years. All of my “near” distance relationship didn’t work out… they all end less than a year. Have I been cursed? Maybe. But I don’t give a bloody damn bout it anyway. It teach me to be a smarter and better man. A man that can take everything and give everything without losing anything. A man that can endure hell on earth and spreads heaven to those he loves and cares.

I need a time out…

Working is starting to take it’s toll on me. I’m becoming easily tired and irritated too. I am thinking of continuing my study… I was thinking either photography or culinary art. Hahaha… yeah, still love making foods even though I prefer them staying in my stomach. I was thinking of quitting on November… at first I thought of December but then my friend said I might get my December’s salary late since the management need to do all those things to “roll things up” for 2011….

And it continues

It is interesting meeting different people everyday. Some are strange, some are just normal, some are in between.

I’m currently at McD Sunway… there will be a modelling competition held at the ice rink soon… yeah THE ice rink… there’s already a catwalk runway and they are currently doing some sound check which is quiet noisy…. Enough of that anyway… they are just doing their jobs.

And half a million question that I will never answer; when are you going to continue your study? One thing for certain; NOT NOW.

 

 

 

P/S: my mom’s old Perodua Kancil car can still go 120KM/H…

P/S: half a million question (it’s a question that cost half a million dollar, not the 500,000th question…)

P/S: McD’s light coke taste different compared to the light coke from the can…

P/S: the only reason I online using McD’s wifi is because my internet at home is having some major problems…

P/S: I love you~ |^_^|

Deep inside, I am just a human after all.

“Do you really love her?” my twinny asked me.

The question actually makes me wonder, do I even believe in love anymore? I realised that there is no more pain in my chest, but it is hollow. Have I got over J? If I have, why there is a f-ing hole in my chest?

People say that a good-looking guy can always get the girls easily. Not in my case though… I got Chinese look… Malay girls won’t approach me because of my look, Chinese girls won’t approach me because they know that I’m Malay (I can’t speak Mandarin or Cantonese). Strange how the world works… change my case into a girl and the girl easily attract both Malay and Chinese guys. I know that I don’t have that friendly looks all the time. I just don’t get it anymore. What does a girl really want from a guy?

I just wish that I have a time machine… I don’t want to go to the past and reset it, I want to go to the future and see who will be at my side.

I wonder why.

Okay, the title doesn't has anything to do with the Lemon Tree song what so ever~

It has been almost two months since I started working. It's at this stage only I feel exhausted due to working.
I spend almost whole of my off day sleeping... and even that is tiring....
If my parents know bout this, I'm sure they will ask me to just quit the job and get another job nearer to our house.
But whatever happen, I'll stick to my current job. I love what I do, and that's all I need. (^_^)

You are what you think you are.

A very simple yet inspirational word.

What will you do if suddenly you realised all these time you were working in a negative environment?

It’s either you quit your job, or change your environment. For me, I decided to change my environment for good.

Thanks to a very inspirational book recommended by my friend; The Magic Of Thinking Big.

 

Huzie's Tags: I love cats,I am thinking that I am a very great person and I am!

And the story continue~

Is it just me or I feel like everyday I’m lying to myself?

Saying the same old things over and over again every morning and night.

I am just a human with feelings and emotions.

Life is one big unpredictable board game.

Love is one big unpredictable board game.

I can’t believe anyone….

At this point, I MUST be selfish.

To hell bout others… they don’t care bout me in the first place. Why should I care bout them?

Huzie's Tags: I am tired,I am sick,I love cats

I have a list of things I want to buy.

I still haven’t got my first salary, but I already have a very-short-but-expensive list of things that I want to buy.

1. Digital SLR camera (RM2,000+)

2. A new phone; either Nokia N97 mini, Nokia C3, or Sony Ericsson Vivaz Pro (RM1,500+)

So, I have to collect at least RM3,500. That’s like 6 months of my salary.

Damn, I’m still not sure if I’ll be able to be a full-timer and I have all this list…haiz…

Huzie's Tags: I'm actually very tired,it's my offday so I'm going to get a lot of rest before going to Sunway on 30th

I woke up this morning and realised I’m actually late.

I know I was late this morning, but I still have time to have some breakfast (roti canai and teh tarik). I arrived at the KTM station at 9.30 a.m.

Thank God I managed to punch my card exactly at 10.00 a.m. PHEW! Today I used almost half of my working time organizing the store room for the new stocks…

I also just found out that I have to work at TL Sunway from 30th April until 2nd May since they are having member day and they need extra man power. Maybe it is the advantage of being friends with the supervisor. Hahaha. Since my dad will be going to Johor on 29th April and will only be coming back on 1st May, I might have to ask my dearest friend/sister for a ride.

Oh, to dear readers; Tropicana Life Sunway Pyramid will held a member day on 30th April to 2nd May . All Tropicana's brand will be on sale up to 70%. Be there or be square. It is an early invitation. Don’t worry, the discounts are also apply to non-members, but members can always get extra 20% off as long as you don’t forget your member card.

 

Huzie's Tags: I'm promoting indirectly through my blog,It will help me to get more money,and it will help you to collect money for the sale

curse you for making me post twice in a day…

I stumbled upon my friend’s post. The problem has been among Malays since we can spell APPLE.

Ok, that bullshit… like my friend said, it’s the mentality. Those who can’t speak fluent English are actually envy at those who can even speak English with some accent here and there. I’m the very near example of a typical Malay guy who can speak fluent English (even though I have to admit that sometime I do have problems with grammar while writing) with some British accent.

When SOME people hear me talking in English (I have to emphasize the word some) they thought I’m Chinese instead of Malay. While SOME will say that I’m just showing off.

Damn it people, it’s not for showing off. Just admit that you are envy. You often listen and sing those popular English songs but never give a damn bout the bloody pronunciation and spelling. That’s your problem! You just don’t care bout all these “small” things. You can easily find all the right tools that you need to learn how to speak fluent English via Internet, but you use the bloody Internet for Facebook, Myspace, Twitter, etc.

Oh, one more thing; stop blaming the school systems and teachers damn it! It’s your own fault for not teaching your children correctly. Your children only spend maximum time of 8 hours per day at school and maximum of 8 hours per week with their English teacher. Hence, the children are spending more time with parents. You can do the bloody math. Plus, it’s not everyday you went to the salon, spa, or massage parlour.

Huzie's Tags: who the heck are going to read my blog anyway?,all me readers are teenagers and they are my friends,experience as a temporary teacher teached my a lot

You love metal, I love rock!

It has been a week since I work now…

I’m still trying to get along with my colleagues, especially my senior/promoter-in-charge in the shop…

Yeah, just found out she is just the person in charge and not the super…

Anyway, I bought my “uniforms” today. A stripes green sweater from Wild Channel and a green sweater from Hotto Windo. It’s but 1 free 1, so what the heck!

So I don’t really have to worry bout what shirt should I wear next time I go to work. All I have to worry about now are my hairstyle, jeans and shoes. Damn! I just want to go to work, not dating!

There is actually a debate (not really, just a figure of speech but it still cool) about what kind of song should we play in the shop.

If you ask me, I will choose from pop to screamo and everything in between. But my colleague (let’s call him Mr.M) insist that we play metal genre… I can still accept punk rock but anything that goes heavier that iblessthefall is totally unacceptable. The songs easily scared the customers away!! The second they hear the song (especially the non-stop deep screaming) they instantly change their direction since 80% of the customers at TL Subang are people with family….

However, the songs do attract those who wanted to withdraw their money (the Maybank ATM is situated just in front of the shop) but all of them will have this strange glance…

Me and Mr.M did have some fun though… headbanging now and then… ignoring everyone that looks at us. We should have use that leisure time to reorganise the storage room instead. Maybe next time… the storage room won’t go anywhere. It will only gets very messy, that’s all (damn, what an attitude).

 

Huzie's Tags: what is the hardest metal on earth?,what is the hardest rock on earth?,when will I get my 1st salary?,who will be my new colleague next month?,where did I put my Simple Plan album?,how on earth I wrote something this long without even thinking what exactly I should say,do,see,and hear?

It took me 5 minutes to think of a title, so what the heck!

It has been few days since I started working…

Hold it! I know what you want to ask me…

Here’s the answer; I’m there to earn experience and not because of the money… not 100%.

Maybe 90% experience and 10% money.

I got a list (though the list is not written down, it’s just in my head) of things that I want to buy… but since it’s just an imaginary list and things are keep changing, I’m not interested in listing it down on a paper.

Damn, what the heck was I talking about??

I must be tired……….

Huzie's Tags: come to TL subang if you want to watch me in action!,on second thought don't come,oh wait! do come and help me to increase my commision!! hehehehe

Again, another random reckless act.

Seriously, does everyone needs to be like Justin Bieber??

One is already too many people. Enough already.

Now everybody wants an emo haircut. Thanks Justin… NOT!

 

P/S: What else should I say huh?

Huzie's Tags: don't ask me why I hate Justin Bieber,damn I can spell his name corectly!

Does each day of the week have its own colour?

If Monday is blue, what about the other days?

Do they have their own colour too??

Maybe they do…

Monday = BLUE

Tuesday = YELLOW

Wednesday = RED

Thursday = PURPLE

Friday = GREEN

Saturday = ORANGE

Sunday = WHITE

Err… my wardrobe don’t have every colours.

Damn, it’s time for me to go United Colors of Benetton.

And it’s time to throw away those black shirts too (NOT!)

 

P/S: I want to watch the 2009 edition of Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya!!!

Huzie's Tags: it's raining every evening here,thank you to my bestest friend!,I think they did say about colours for each day in Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya

Another random reckless act.

I’m 20! Stop choosing things that I don’t want to do (which obviously YOU are the one wanted to do it in the first place)!!

Huzie's Tags: Jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs,just ignore this though,seriously just ignore this post,it doesn't related to you the readers

A random reckless act.

Ugh! I want a job! A real job with salary!!

 

 

 

P/S: just like the title says; it’s random

Technorati Tags: it is random but at the same time I really want it,the word reckless is sexy and dangerous,I seriously need a bloody job!

Damn, when was the last time I even write something??

it has been a while since I post something here...
I guess I just don't have the mood even though I have a lot of time.
few things just "suddenly" happened in my life.
~I quit university...
~I can't go to Malaysia's well-known art school...
~I got a whole one year to "think bout my future"...
those are a few of them...


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btw, now I remember why I used Windows Live Writer to update my blog...
things in here just end up "lag" with my typing speed...
and it's not even in the full speed (it isn't "that" fast anyway)...
there are so many typing errors I just can't stop cursing at the screen (which totally innocent in this case)...


P/S: currently I got no idea for my doodles... we'll just wait and see then.

Chasing the forgotten dream

It has been ages since I update anything in here… I’ve been busy doing things here and there. Chasing my real dream; involve in arts…